You have come too far to give up on your dreams. Do not let your past interfere with what God has for you. Decide to pick up whatever dreams you had. Whether to write a book, go back to school, lose weight, read a book of the bible. Starting over doesn't make you a failure. Giving up does. There are some things to come that have not yet appeared to you, because you have not made a move to get that thing going. Like a seed if you never tend to it, it won't grow. Well same holds true with your dreams, it will wither away without the proper care and attention. Find your strength in Jesus, get up and make a move forward.